30 over 30 | A Limited Podcast Series | Pt 1

Sharing my 30th Birthday Reflections and Lessons on Life, Faith, Purpose, Motherhood, & Love

Well, it’s finally here — my 30th birthday. By the time you read this, I turned 30 on Wednesday, October 11th… and I’m still processing how I feel about it. And this reel my husband shared with me at the top of the year isn’t helping. 😒

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On the one hand, I am blessed to have arrived at this beautiful milestone, but on the other hand, I am not ready to embrace the weight, responsibility, and reality that comes every year as we age. Time is going by faster and faster, and I see the manifestation of its quickness in myself and my oldest son, who turns three the day after my own birthday (his birthday is the 12th 🙂). With every birthday, I am reminded that he is not a baby anymore, and there’s nothing I can do about it.

Me and my firstborn, Kaiden on Mother’s Day

No matter how much I wish I could go back and feel his tiny folds, hold those tiny fingers, and snuggle him in my arms, he can’t remain a baby forever. Every year he grows not only bigger but smarter, more mature, and more into himself. But if he remained a baby? I wouldn’t be able to witness the kind, funny, smart, and wonderful boy he is becoming.

If I’m being honest with myself, just how I wish I could hold onto my son’s infancy, in some ways, I wish I could hold onto my youth. I was bright-eyed, bushy-tailed, and bold… but I was also naive, self-focused, and disillusioned. I was a baby who had much growing to do. Now? I am stronger, wiser, grounded, and much freer and lighter than ever. Like my son, I am becoming. And the over the next few weeks, I’m sharing all the lessons I have learned along the way in this special, three-part podcast series, 30 over 30. I originally planned this to be one audio post but quickly realized after recording that I had so much to share, so it’s a little chatty but it’s rich and real. Cozy up, grab your favorite beverage, and give it a listen!